Hi
I don't know why but I feel small.
When I'm tasked to do something, but someone else does it better.
I don't know how to respond to it.
I'm trying to change my mindset.
In a way where I learn from them, those better than me.
But instead,
I always just end up feeling smaller than I was before.
I always just end up feeling incompetent, that I should just be following.
That someone is always better than me and I'm too timid to do anything for myself.
That if there's anyone better, choose them instead.
That people don't listen, they just hear.
They ask to know, but not to understand.
They love to watch you smile, but turn away when you cry.
I guess I'm being unfair too.
Why can't I understand?
Am I being selfish when I'm trying to be self-ist?
Messy.
Can I have some time off on my own?
Cause I can't figure it out..
When today's different from yesterday.
And tomorrow's different from today.
Everything keeps changing.
And I keep questioning and it's not helping me understand why.
Everything's so messy in my head.
And my heart is worn out.
Help.
Du vet jeg elsker deg.
Goodbye
