Dear Twenteen.

Dear Twenty Fourteen

It does not bother me one bit that a new year is coming in.
Not one bit at all.

I have fully embraced and appreciated every single bit of you and everything that has come with it.

I have fully loved and given you all that I have had to offer, all that I have had in me to give.

Regrets, I have had many.

You have brought me down so low, so many times.

You have brought me so much confusion and doubt, about everything and most importantly, about myself.

 Never have I in my 19 years of life doubted my very own capabilities and the things I believe in.

Never have I in my 19 years of life asked myself these questions I've never even thought of before.

Never have I in my 19 years of life have to usher so many new people in and leave just as many behind.

(Not even in 2011, not even in 2012.

Which I can fully 100% say were the hardest years of my life which I can never, ever erase.)

You were such a challenge which I could have never won without....without so many things.

But I am still insanely grateful for having to go through you.

For showing me that with hard work and effort, comes success.

For showing me that in every bad there is good,

and in every good there is bad.

For showing me the importance of standing rooted to yourself,

to give yourself a chance to hear yourself out,

and the importance of loving other people even if it hurts..

More than anything, I am so up and ready to be leaving 2014.

I have decided to leave everything that I wanted in 2014 behind.

I want to want and work for/towards newer things and not stay stuck in the things that are not working in the past.
To look at everything in a fresher perspective and just remember that things can still be worthy.

Because in this year I've been so repeatedly broken, without having time to heal.

Dear Twenty Fifteen

Will I be having resolutions?

Not for now.
I've never been the type of person who sets definite, solid goals/resolutions for things.

I go along, find meanings in things and then set my own motives.

I just feel that if I set something solid from the start, I wouldn't have the room/chance/ability to be flexible about decisions, change, life..

Maybe that's why I feel so ready to leave 2014.

Because I had not set resolutions of any kind, so I don't feel leashed to something unfinished.

Because I had not set such expectations, so I feel that in all that I've managed to do in that year, I feel that it was the best I could give in that very moment.

I hope that the challenges to come from you will be fresher, and will teach me better things.

I hope that with all the time that you allow,

I'll be able to mend, anything and everything.

But ultimately..
Regrets and success we all have in life, not just in a certain year.

I strongly believe that I will go through regrets and success in 2015 as well.

But 'll pull through and in the end, evidently, there will always still be meaning in everything.

To everyone who's reading this;
You are enough.
So please don't go changing.

"If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
Cause the heart never lies"

Du vet jeg elsker deg.

Goodbye